Dawdling Torments

I waited for you at night,
When the sky was full of stars,
When the full moon was beaming upon me,
But you never came, and I was left all alone.

I waited for you in the rain,
To hold my hand and walk,
Amidst the Mother Nature,
But I was all there, soaked in my tears,
And no one was there to give me solace.

I waited for you on cold winter noon,
All I could hear soft rustling of fallen dry leaves,
Quite shivering the noon was,
And I waited for you to hug me, make me feel warm,
All I could do was to curl up my hands together to embrace myself.

I waited for you, and am still waiting,
And will wait forever,
No matter how much I will get soaked,
No matter how much alone I will feel,
No matter how much I will crave for the warmth,
But I will wait, and will...

A HEARFELT APOLOGY..

How do I tell you I'm sorry -

With a gesture, a look, a touch?

How is it I never realized

I hurt you so very much?

I do not ask forgiveness,

A comfort I'll never deserve.

I merely want to let you know,

But I cannot find the nerve.

To finally confront you, face-to-face,

To look you in the eye,

To face your wrath, your apathy -

Too terrified to try.

You called me selfish, I turned away,

I festered and I fled;

Cutting and wounding and lashing out,

Just to see if you bled.

Betraying and deceiving you,

I surely had no right

To snatch away such a precious gem;

A dark thief in the night.

Four days like forever passed

To bring me here this day,

When I present these simple words

I never thought to say.

The time has come, it's long past due,

To put aside my fear;

Would this confession torture you,

Or have you longed to hear?

To hear those two forbidden words,

To vanquish all the pain,

To understand my dearest wish:

To know you once again.

The days aged me remarkably,

Though they have not made me wise;

I do know I erred irrevocably -

For that I apologize.