EXTREMITIES.......

I had never meant this blog to be a journal....but unwittingly and unknowingly my moods, my fears, my emotions etc have dribbled their way into it....
Incidents and events are of no importance in the bigger picture...they are to be treated as trivialities...if given undue importance, they morph in to disaster!
Well sometimes...when youu want to numb the emotions you tend to focus on the event...and analyze its technicalities...the "hows" and "whats" instead of the "whys"...
This is easy to do....emotions and events are manageable when they take place at different intervals of time and are independent of each other....
But when lightning strikes from all four directions at once, then it is impossible to not think "WHY"??? Rants of self-pity...like.... Why me?? Why now???
But like they say....If not YOU then WHO?? If not NOW then WHEN???
But if you look around closely....Emerge from your convoluted sense of the world and pay some attention...Keep your eyes and ears open....You will realize...you definitely are not the only one....
Its literally "Kahaani Har life ki" ( the story of every other life ).....and with time and experience I've also come to believe in the adage...
"That which doesn't kill you..only makes you stronger!"
So...I figure...Live life to the fullest...Go Make a few mistakes Mistakes...and some more!!
Fall...so that you can rise again.....all the wiser for the fall.....
But for those who understand the happier side of the world...My perception of the world just gets weirder..
I live in happiness and despair all at the same time....Tremendously happy...making everyone who stays around laugh....and feel the twinkle of their happiness...let it invade your being....
UNTIL...the other monster takes over....the sulky, sullen, irritable...near-clinical-depression self...which emerges to simply confuse the shit out of you!!

So effectively...I become...Happy...Depressed...Confused!!
Now Do I clinically qualify for psychosis???
Now answer me this....So...What is my mood today????