Saturday, February 28

‘Cheated’

My Present state of mind reads,

That I have been cheated far and wide!

People have used me to better their condition.

They have misused, and played, with my devotion.

I feel so doomed, thinking of how I fell in this trap,

The bait of which was laced with friendship, love and humility!

As I give a deep thought to this,

In my mind, some things start to take shape,

The people, and feeling blamed earlier, now don’t seem to be at mistake!

Love came along, with a bag full of Joy and Pain,

So how can the joy be mine and the pain be other’s mistake.

Love came by own choice and will leave the same way,

So how can I blame it, this way?

Friendship is a relation of trust, a feeling two individuals share,

Friendship hence is not bigger than friends,

No rights have I then to try, to change my friends!

I still feel cheated and it hurts a lot.

But, if friends and love aren’t the culprits, who is?

Thinking deeper and longer, I finally come to this realization

That I have been a victim of nothing, but my own expectation!!

Friday, February 13



FACADE 
I thought you were everything that I wanted.....
I thought you were everything that I ever had.....
All the memories that I treasured....
Are now running down in the form of tears.....
Leaving wet imprints on my cheeks!!!
The smile on my lips....
The blush on my cheeks...
The twinkle in my eyes...
Is now mocking me!!!
It just took a moment to fall in love with you.....
And it attained a new dimension every time I breathed!!!
Once in a blue moon our paths clashed...
And I received a smile!!!
It did its magic!!
Every time I dared to fly high
I found myself fallen apart

And now my heart is shattered into a million pieces
The painful aspect…almost unbearable…yet unspeakable…
You gave me a false sky to fly......
And now I’m dashed to the ground with a bitter reality!!!
Everyday my soul is burning….
Every moment my heart is crying…..
Your pretension did the magic....
Your ignorance made the way....
Your care, your concern burnt into ashes...
It made me realize that there was nothing....
But a façade of love, friendship and trust!!!

Thursday, February 5

This one's to you....Guru Anna ( a.k.a. Anurag )...Ein herzliches Dankeschön!


A TRAGEDY CHRISTENED "LIFE "

Here I am sitting in my office late into the night… 
Pondering hard about life and how it has maneuvered on....

How it transformed from a maverick college time to a strictly professional life
but then where are those puerile fights and those laughter riots.....
How the tiny pocket money changed to big fat monthly paychecks 
but then why does it bring such negligible happiness…. 

How the dirty few tattered denim jeans changed to a brand new wardrobe 
but then why is there no one other than me to apportionate them..........
How a single platter of samosa changed to a large cheezy Pizza or burger 
But then what happened to my appetite, where is that wonted hunger….. 

Here I am sitting in my office late into the night… 
Pondering hard about life and how it has maneuvered on....

How a rusty bike always in reserve changed to one with a brimming fuel tank
but then why are there only a handful of places to journey on…… 
How a dingy coffee shop changed to a Cafe Coffee Day or Barista
but then why is that hangout always a bit too far away….. 

How a general class journey changed to an air conditioned executive business class 
but then why are there miserly less vacations for unrestrained enjoyment…. 
How a old assembled desktop changed to a swanky new branded laptop 
but then why is there always a dearth of time to switch it on………. 

Here I am sitting in my office late into the night… 
Pondering hard about life and how it has maneuvered on....

How a entire multitude of friends changed to a small bunch of office mates
but then why does every second after 8'o Clock feels like it's getting a bit too late…. 
How a limited value prepaid card changed to an unlimited CUG postpaid package 
but then why do pals tender very less calls & proffer even fewer messages…… 

Here I am sitting in my office late into the night… 
Pondering hard about life and how it has maneuvered on....

Wednesday, February 4

"You will never know love unless you surrender to it." --- "Fools Rush In"


LOVE – Can This be IT
I know how to fall in love with you,
And how to get you alongside.
I know being with you can make me smile,
And then I know it can make me cry.
I know there’s not much I know about you,
And I know there isn’t more to know,
because you don’t know how I feel for you,
And that’s enough for me to know.
But i don’t know how to forget you,
And I don’t know how to hate,
I don’t know because I don’t want to know,
That u have become my love, my life and fate.

I don’t know why I'm afraid to accept,
That this is love happening to me;
I don’t know why I fear,
That it will take you away from me.
I don’t know why I’m afraid to love,
As it’s the most wonderful feeling,
but I know if my heart breaks,
There won’t be any revealing…



Monday, February 2

Gladiators Fortnight @ Rod Laver Arena

The Australian Open'09 

 

          Wow........I just finished witnessing the most memorable display of tennis for a long long time (( six months is a long time when you are a tennis buff  )). Australian Open. The first Grand Slam of the year, and what an event it was.

          Fifteen days (( yes, it wasn’t fourteen days, the men's singles finale went past midnight, so technically it counts as a new date and day )) of the best tennis that we were all witness to. Many congratulations to all the winners and commiserations to those who could not make it to the winners’ podium this year. (( mind you, there are no losers here )).. Each one who makes the cut to play is a winner in his/her own right.

          The heat of Melbourne, could not recede the frivolity and enthusiasm of the extravaganza. Each and every point, won or lost, was cheered (( and jeered at times )) on in the same vein. In events like these, it never is about the players, but is always about the willpower, dedication, practice and perseverance that go on to the making of a champion. It is every players dream to be at the top of the ladder, to have perfection in every shot he plays, to be unassailable and yet be publicly admired, be a peoples’ champion, yet only a few achieve the ultimate goal.

           Sport is a great leveler, one day you win and be the talk of the town, the next day you end up on the wrong side and face the wrath of one and all.

During these trying times Self belief and Confidence taking a beating, but what differentiates great players from good players is their drive for greater glory and hunger for betterment.

This years’ event left sweet-bitter memories for all the ardent fans and critics alike. Fed Ex ( Roger ) played some very good tennis until he fell into the way of the juggernaut of Rafa ( Nadal ). His dream for the 14th Grand slam title, would have to wait a bit longer, maybe till the next tournament. Let me not take away anything from him. He is a true champion and is bound to hit back at his detractors. (( Maybe next time when I blog about the Open, he already would have done that )). He still has enough in him to overtake PISTOL Pete as the most decorated player in the history of the game.

Rafael Nadal ( a.k.a Rafa a.k.a the Matador of Melbourne ), what an year he has had. Trophies at the Roland Garros, the Wimbledon, the Numero Uno ranking , Olympic Gold medal and now the Australian Open crown. At the moment he seems like General Maximus Decimus Meridius, the invincible. He has settled into the new order of World tennis like a duck takes to water.

          Then there were the others, warriors who fell at different stages after promising starts, be it Roddick, Verdasco, Murray or Djokovic. Some made their mark and others just disappointed.

          The Ladies section too began on a promising note but was thrown open after the exit of many top seeds. The crown was up for grabs and Serena powered her way to the title. It was sheer power and brutality on her part that blew Dinara Safina in the finals. Jankovic, Venus, Ana and Jelena fell early in the battleground for supremacy.

The Indian Connection

Closer, at home, there was some cheer too. Mahesh and Sania went on to win the Mixed Doubles title and Yuki Bhambri got the U-16 Boys crown. Hesh, however had to settle for the runners up tag in the men’s doubles, where he and partner Knowles were taken to task by the Bryan bros. Lee ( Paes ) lost in the semis after a fighting display.

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Epilogue

I have a wager going on with my flat mate and friend Tapan, and am quite content having already won a part of it. He rooted for roger to win, but then Nadal had other ideas and so did I. I’ll disclose the other part of the wager as things unfold in the near future.

Better luck next time, Tapan.

Hopefully Wimbledon proves to be Roger’s elusive slam number 14 though their still are the clay courts of Rolland Garros to conquer.

Roger’s emotional outburst at the presentation ceremony today moved quite a few hearts and I do confess, mine was one of them.